Friday, 22 June 2007

A simple dry-wall man



Firstly, Happy Fathers Day! to all dads all over the world! :) I know this is a bit late, Im sorry!

According to Wikipedia Father's Day is a secular holiday inaugurated in the early twentieth century to complement Mother's Day in celebrating fatherhood and parenting by males, and to honor and commemorate fathers and forefathers.

For me its just a day to contemplate all that my father has done for me and to thank him for his unconditional love and support.

Tell me what a father really is. Should he be tall or short. A father is a guide a mentor, the family stone, the glue that holds the family together, all in all a father is someone to talk to and someone who listens. He knows how you feel when you even don't. A father is the strong masculine role model.

I wanted to share this writing with all of you guys reading this.

I fell in love with a man
When I was only four years old
He was tall with big blue eyes
And he was strong enough to holdme when I cried.
He loved my mom
He loved me and my sis
And together we'd make a family.

The teenage years were so hard
I know at times I broke his heart
But God's love shown
Through Dad's strong will
And he stood by me even still.

He taught me how to love and care
He gave me hugs when I was scared
And I thank God for each day
My Dad's been there.

It takes a special kind of man
One that fits Gods' perfect plan
To be a Dad
And to give the life we've had.

He was just a simple drywall man
Trying to get by
But little did he know
God had a plan for his life.

There is another writing that I wanted to share which my friend Disha "twisted angel" Diwan has penned. She has written a beautiful verse describing her dad, a painful incident in her life that she had to go through and she concludes by cherishing the times she has spent with her dad! (Thanks D for the writtings)

"He was Fifty,
Half a century as I would normally say.
Well rounded and a moustache like a Walrus.
Reddish brown hair and he was fair.
Popularly known as Ginger not just by his friends but by me too
he never forced me to call him dad or papa,
so for me he is ginger forever and for always.
He was one of the typical boarding school boys, athletic in everyway!

It is a day I wont ever forget,
seeing him sitting helplessly on the bed
not being able to walk properly
entering the room I saw this image of him
i could not understand anything
then i heard my ma tell me what happend
i never wanted to cry
i wanted to be daddies strong girl
but helplessly a few tears rolled down my cheek

Sitting there looking at him.
seeing the tears in his eyes
I was scared
didnt know how serious he was
and i didnt want to think about it either
at that moment i wanted to yell out and say
"my dad strongest"
just like the ways in the ad would say.

He had indeed had a stroke and help was on the way
for us to take him to the hospital
It is just then that I realised that he wasnt that young anymore
I still live in that fear that something might happen to him
Its been 2 years but it still feels like yesterday.

I remember i refused to visit him to the hospital
I couldnt see him that way
My friends forced me to but I couldnt
In the end i built up the courage and went with them.
As soon as I walked in I wanted to run away

Seeing he is old now
makes me go down memory lane
I remember the time we've spent together.
and i cant help but smile.
from buying me toys nearly everyday
to playing video games with me.
from watching wrestling, to getting me my own punching bag
for coming to all my football matches and cheering me
to sitting with me through all the World Cup matches
Doing the last minute running around for my admissions
to getting not even a THANK YOU from me
I am thankful to him and always will be
cause for me there is only one ginger in this world
and he truely is the best dad in the world"

D thanks for sharing this. I know most will be able to relate to this in some way or form :)

And Finally "HAPPY FATHERS DAY!" to all dads

Tuesday, 19 June 2007

Being Single!!!


I am single! :D committed to no one and nothing in particualar. Single again after a good relationship but didnt work out for some reasons, although my my ex did let me down a bit but i am over it after all i am here to be happy and not hate any one! Though she is one amazing woman!

Fuck sorry I drifted away from the topic on hand.....taking a deeeeeeepppp breath in I exhale saying im FCKING SINGLE :D and it fcking feels good to be fckin single, rahul for fucks sakes stop with the fucks :p....haha. Damn i am having fun! :D, talk to alll the chics in the world I want to, go to the places I want to go to, do the things I want to do, see the movies I want to see. Let me tell you it is a great life and why shouldnt it be?

There is no pressure to find love or to find and emotional support heh heh cause I dont need to find love, I love my self and there are 100's of people out there who love me, so i dont really need "any one" person to love me in particular. The thing is when you love some one you are close to them, you find faults in them. But finding faults destroys love and instead of helping to fill these holes we run away. Staying and helping to fill the gaps is wisdom but anyways...shit i dont know why i am drifting away!

SOME REASONS FOR STAYING SINGLE!
  1. You can take the time to find the right Woman
By staying contently single you can afford to wait for your true soul mate (if one even exists). You can take your time to wade through the dating pool and wait for the right person.

By holding out for miss right you can avoid a mistake and have a relationship for love rather than for desperation.

Its sad but we guys fall in a relationship for wrong reasons.
  • We have reached a certain age
  • all our friends have girl friends.
  • we are afraid that this one will get away.
by taking your time you can avoid the probabilites of a break up, cuase a break up simply HURTS!.

2. You can focus on your career
You remain free to put in serious thoughts about your work life or the career path you have chosen. Wait for sometime once we are successful hoardes of women will be around! :D

3. You can do what you want and when you want to
You can pick up and go anywhere you want to, do anything you want any time you want. No one is in the background saying that you should grow up!. Free to hang out with buddies, time for personal interests!!...chatting up with different women ha!!..

4. You can enjoy serenity
Being single does not involve fights and mood swings and emotional storms or you blaming her for everything and vice versa.

Although relationships are alot of fun (speaking from my experience) by being single you are keeping the door open to so many options and oppurtunities in your life.

I guess it would have been different if a women had written this post

I dont really rule out dating someone in the near future as well or even getting back with my ex cause hey she is a babe :P...
BUT RIGHT NOW IM SINGLE AND LOVING IT!...

Saturday, 9 June 2007

Something i wanted you guys to read!


The other day i was travelling down to kandivili when i realsied i had a flat tyre. So i decided to stop at the small road side punture shop just next to the signal near the Andheri flyover.Small shanties lined the road and small, dirty kids played on side of the highway, like it was their playground. It indeed was, the pace and speed of the cars notwithstanding, they continued with their game like nobody's business!

While the tyre was being repaired, I decided to take a look around. Right next to the shop sitting on the pavement was this garrishly dressed young woman. With ornate fake jewellery, badly done makeup and tired eyes, she just sat there. I guessed, she was waiting for her next customer...a lady of the night! The men, young lads more like, went about fixing the puncture like pros doing it for many years now.

The kids in the picture above, were the 2 little guys playing their imaginary game next to the highway, darting back and forth between 2-3 shanties. One little guy, the fellow in white, squats down to examine the repairs being done. I bend down and take a picture. The other toothless fellow steps on the tube and squirts it all over the muddy road! A stern look from the older boys makes him run back into the hut. But soon, he is back and just as naughty as ever.

I couldnt help smiling, they were just too cute to ignore. I had to take a picture. I have driven past this place so often over the years, but never stopped here. I have become so oblivious to the poverty, that we just ignore and walk past. The 2 little boys, dont even know their names, are just like any other numerous street children we find across Mumbai. In the trains selling small trinkets, on the roads washing cars, working at chaiwallas for a living, or worse still begging at the signal, or drugged into sleep to evoke a more emotional response from the general public!

Thousands of kids are brought to Mumbai every year to be abandoned by their parents on the station. Unable to afford food for an extra hungry mouth, they leave them in Mumbai to earn and make a living. Some do get reasonably ok jobs. But for a few, this is nothing short of hell. Raped, sodomised, molested, made to work like slaves in countless sweatshops...this then becomes life as they know it. Childhood's innocence lost forever.

These guys were the luckier ones. Living next to the puncture shop, they were learning the trade and would soon, in all probability, have their own little puncture shop at the corner of some road some day. The poverty, the filth, the atmosphere around just made no difference. They played, like all kids should. The smiles convey it all, dont they???I wish the same for all of Mumbai's little kids. I wish all could play, play with the same joy and laughter as i was able to when i was their age.

I wish these kids rather than repairing punctures could learn, read and write. Afterall every single kid on this planet desevers education.

I for one am on the verge of doing something in my own small way to help these street kids, I plan to teach some of the young street children through a few NGO's & its not that difficult all it requires is 2-3 hours every week in the evenings, even if you cant teach just spending time with them would make them so happy!

Its an african Proverb, " It takes a village to raise a child."We all have been fortunate Enough to have some one to take care of us...but we also have some who are not that fortunate..
I wish happiness to all the children of mumbai both rich and poor!! :)

Monday, 21 May 2007

Family


When you think of your family, what emotions do you feel? We feel all different emotions, whether it is love, affection, sorrow, grief, anger, resentment, appreciation etc . One thing we all have in common is that the word family will all cause us to feel some emotion and emotions are the life blood of every human.

Our mother, our father, brothers, sisters, grand parents they all have a part in shaping our lives. Our beliefs, our attitudes, our point of views, habits so on so forth these can be usually traced to our child hood when we were impressionable and open minded. Ready to believe whatever our fathers and mothers impressed on us.


We are a family of 4 My Father, My Mother and My Sister.
When i speak of my father the word introvert comes to mind, he is on the whole a quiet man though when with friends can be quiet funny and when drunk!..hhaha...he is hilarious :p.
I still remember my early years in this world when i learnt to walk holding is 1st finger. The man has taught me every damn thing in this world and i haven't even told him thank you. He is the man who used to lay me in the bed when i was a little baby that was long long ago. My father has given my food, clothing, shelter, education, comforts etc. etc. The man has showed honesty through ups and downs. My father used to walk me to school every day when i was in kindergarten, when we bought our car, he drove me there. He taught me how a hold a pen, a cricket bat how to kick the ball, back then he had a dream for me, i hope his dream turns into reality someday. I owe this man completely. i wish i cld be as good a father to my child as he was to me

My mother omg!!...she fights with me every single day!..haha...but i love it! :) n love her :)
My mom to put it simply is a fighter. She has stood up to many difficulties in her life! it has pained me to see her go through so much trouble in her life. i have been a bad child for her , I just wished i had the guts to tell my mom "mummy I'm Sorry!" I always disobey her and fight with her for silliest reasons. I only would like to tell her sorry for the bad I've said, for worrying her sick. My Mom has done everything right in her life and I'm thank ful to her. I hope she looks at me and feels proud some day. I hope i can do at least half of the things you have done for me. I have never told her i love her, i hope i don't regret it later

My sister haha!!...she is in one word a rock star!..she is soo bloody talented she can make the best run for their money, she is an extremely intelligent, witty and confident girl!. She is already a very very successful person!...at only a young age. Ive grown up with her. She too has gone through a lot of bad times during her school and college days!, but today when i look at her i can say she is happy with what she is today, her smile is contagious, her style is unique and she is extremely smart.

My Family has been my support over the years. I still remember the time when i used to walk with my dad in our compounds during the rains, holding his finger splashing water every whr. When im writing this post i remember every time my parents have got me something i wanted to have. i remember my mother fighting with the principal for my admissions in junior kg. i remember every time my sister has helped me out with my school/college projects even though she was very busy and when i did well i dint even thank her. i wish i could go back to an early age and relive those golden years once again and try to be a better son and a better brother. I owe my family big time! i wish i could just one day tell them all a big thank you!

today at the cross roads of my life, my family is my greatest support when i see my dad who has retired i wish to reach out to him and be his friend but i dnt knw how to, my mother who is trying he best to every thing perfectly for us, i wish i could hug her just with my all my heart!

Well sorry for penning down a bit too much about my family, but i didnt know any other way to go about this post. Im sure most of u reading this port would have similar feelings for ur family as well! :)

Until next time!!

Sunday, 20 May 2007

Vacations!

well!, i guess I'll welcome my self to the world of blogging!, wasn't really to keen but since i am in the throes of unemployment i say to my self why not?

i am 20 friggin years old now. Wow! 20 years have passed in my life, right from kindergarten up to graduating! years have passed, exams have come and gone, birthdays have rolled on, lectures after lectures and some more!, tuition's, bunking every damn thing related with schooling. Exams yes!...the dreaded exams! Exams would usually be moments of agony and stress. As for me, i never really managed to finish my portion ever for any subject or for any exam in my life. Although i did manage to out do my self in each exam that came along moreover i had also perfected the art of copying :p. Exams were usually followed by Vacations! and big huge smiles on every1s faces partly because exams had just finished and also because of the impeding leisure and party time!!!!!! \m/!

Vacations were time away from school, pleasure trips or even a trip abroad.

My Vacations were mixture of pure bliss and some rather vague and dragging or u can say plain bout boring moments. Moments of sheer agony and pain to moments of laughter fun and games

Yes Vacations have been a mixed bag of emotions for me!...i still remember growing up as a shy and timid child only mixing around with close friends used to have a tough time during vacations in the early years. My holidays back then say wen i was like 6-10 year olds were quiet a riot but with only close friends. Ours was a gang of 5 me, Akshay, Allen, Ameya n usually the 5th was either Dipayan or Bharat. We did all weired stuff during our vacations or we thought 'twas weired for our age i.e. climbing tress just to hide during hide and seek, playing cricket from 11 in the morning until 2 and then again in the evening at 5, when it was dark we played cricket under the tube light ha ha!...those were mad days. My dad, whenever he was around, always took me out for a ride in his new Maruti 800 back then. We usually ended up going for drives to Virar lake, Powai lake, Aarey Colony or the National Park, i still remember every afternoon whenever he was in Bombay we the awesome twosome headed out for drives. He liked driving i just liked sitting in the front seat of a car, oh well the thought of sitting in a car just excited me

As time passed by i entered my adolescence vacations passed by, i was never a guy to take up hobbies during vacations(oh how! wrong was I!) i usually ended up playing down in our apartment wasting time!..lol. However i was still a back bencher and less than confident kid. I sure as hell couldn't speak for nuts in public, basically my public speaking sucked, u can i was confined to the world just in my building. So this one vacation i guess after my std 8 exams my mother decided to enroll me in this public speaking class in gyan ashram opposite our building. I really thought that this would be boring and stupid, i mean i thought i was OK just a little shy thats it. So bang on first day i get a shock this isn't actually a personality development workshop it is an acting come personality development class heh heh!...man back then standing on stage let alone acting was difficult enough. I came home and fought with my parents to get me out of there, i felt pathetic after day 1 it self. But the teacher there was adamant so i went along! n there u have it! 2months later i was completely re-born confident, smart and witty heh heh...i also discovered this hidden talent in me acting!, i ended up wining quiet a few awards down the years as well.

Years rolled on, vacations rolled on, time was spent now in usually taking up a hobby which ended up being acting/dramatics. Friends grew up in ventured out or shifted in other localities or went abroad. Time playing was taken over By time spent on the pc usally playing games and chatting and hence becoming fat!...:p....

My current vacations although not even a month has passed have been the most boring and painful times.
I am currently doing nothing except for typing meeting friends and physical excericises gymming and yoga.
I say painful because i am on the verge of splitting with my girl friend of 1 year whom i love very much! but there are circumstances one really cant control. Right now i working on my health and waiting for the art of living course for which i have enrolled to commence!...i would wish to start working but only after AOL!....this one month has really taken a toll on me mentally. Emotional Control is the name of the game!...


Well this was my 1st blog nothing great but hey when u begin at the bottom, there is only way to go that is above!!..

HAPPY BLOGGING FCKERS!!!! :)